When God Talks To You About Potatoes And You’re Like “What The Heck?”

The other day my house was really messy and my kids were being really naughty and I was too busy with naughty heads to clean the house. When Josiah finally got home I needed a break so I went into my room and laid on my bed.

I was trying to go to sleep when I felt like I needed to pray. So I started praying in tongues. Then I heard God say “potatoes.” And I was like “what the heck, God? That doesn’t make any sense.” Then I was like, “Oh! God must want me to make mashed potatoes for dinner. That sounds delicious.” Then I felt like God told me that’s not what he meant.

So I way just laying there in bed wondering why God told me the word potatoes. Then I started thinking about how delicious potatoes are. You can eat them baked with some butter and sour cream, you can mash them, you can make potato tacos, you can make scalloped potatoes. The possibilities are endless.

But that’s not what God meant when he was trying to talk to me about potatoes. I think he wanted me to be like a potato. Sorry if I just really confused you. Let me tell you a little about potatoes. Something you already probably know.

Potatoes grow underground. Under the dirt. No body see’s them, but they’re there. Growing. Under the dirt. Once they’re almost ready, they grow a nice thick skin, then the farmer harvests them and sells them to me to make delicious food with.

God wants me to be like a potato. He wants me to be okay with growing under the dirt, where no one sees. He wants me to be okay with the fact that sometimes no one will notice me, and that’s okay. But most importantly, he wants me to grow a thick skin.

I’ve got some thin skin. I never realized it until recently when I did something somewhat stupid and someone called me on it. I pretty much just wanted to dig a hole in the ground and live there forever and never let anyone see my face again, kind of like a potato!

I need to be able to have people correct me, and it not completely ruin me. I need to be okay when people say mean things to me and not be so sensitive.

I feel like God is calling me to “the ministry” as all us fancy Christians would put it. In the ministry you need thick skin because people will be nasty to you at times. That can’t totally ruin you.

I like what Pastor Donna Lasit said at a women’s conference a few months ago. She said for women that feel called to the ministry, that you need to have a “tough shell but a soft heart.” I need to work on that.

So let’s all try harder to be more like a potato and eat more potatoes because they’re delicious.

Have You Brought Us Here To Die?

Tonight at prayer, Pastor Kim was talking about being refreshed and not having any fear and to cast all our fear away. As I did the hand motion thing she had us do, I felt such a weight lift off of me that I didn’t even know was there.

I’ve been really stressed about finances lately, which is weird because we’re making just as little now as we have been since we’ve been married. I didn’t realize how much I was worrying about finances. I felt like God told me that I was acting like the Israelites when they left Egypt. First, they came upon the red sea and were convinced they would die at the hand of the Egyptians, but God parted the red sea and… you know the rest.

Then they were all thirsty and needed clean water and kept griping and complaining, not trusting God. They were convinced God brought them to the desert to die. They had forgot that God who parted the red sea could easily take care of them.

The Israelites forgot. They didn’t trust that the same God that parted the Red Sea would give them fresh water. Even though God had come through for them time and time again, they acted like He had never done anything for them and wanted them dead. That’s been me lately.

I’ve forgotten the countless times that God has come through for me. The same God that parted the Red Sea knows my financial struggles and will always provide and always has provided. My family has never gone hungry or had our power turned off. We are always able to pay the bills and have clothes and a house. Why do I so easily forget the wonders God has done in my life?

I felt like God told me not to forget. Not to forget that last Friday I had no money for food, and my friend secretly gave me a gift card for groceries. He told me to remember all those times that he’s provided for my family, and to remember those times when I’m having struggles, and know that God will still take care of me. God still loves me and God will always provide. I just need to trust Him, and never forget what He’s done.

I need to stop acting like the Israelites when they would ask Moses “have you brought us out here to die!?”

You Should Probably Talk To Someone About That…

Have you ever thought to yourself “I should probably talk to someone about that”?

The other day I was telling Josiah that I have a ton of tolerance for the kids, then all of a sudden I’ve lost my mind. There’s no build up, there’s no warning, I just all of a sudden go crazy! Josiah said “you should probably talk to someone about that…”

I was going to on Sunday at church, but the person that I was going to talk to was out of town, so I thought about what they’d say to me. They’d probably say something like this (and this is coming from me who knows the situation really well):

Stop confessing “I’m losing my mind,” “I’m going crazy,” and “I can’t do this.”

Take the thoughts that say “I’m losing my mind,” “I’m going crazy,” and “I can’t do this,” captive, before they become my reality.

Always fit in devotions to my day.

Keep my house clean because it makes me crazy.

But be okay with a little bit of a mess.

Pray a lot.

Worship more.

Get out of the house more.

Get a hobby.

Hangout with some friends.

Get away from the kids once in a while and go on a date. A date where I get to dress up and feel pretty. Not a cheap coffee date where we share a drink (just being real here).

But most importantly, change my confession and my thoughts. When I start to think “I’m losing my mind!” Stop it! Instead think “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!”

So far doing all these things have been helping tremendously, especially changing my confession and watching my thoughts. I also got a hobby! Apparently I like taking pictures with my nice camera!

So, moms, what would you add to this list to help me? And have you ever felt this way too or am I the only one?

Don’t Curse Gods Masterpeice

Have you ever thought or said things like “I’m so ugly. I’m so fat. If only I looked like her. I wish I had a bigger butt. I wish I was skinnier. I wish my nose wasn’t so big. I wish I had blue eyes. My hair sucks. Why did I get such an ugly body?” I know that I’ve thought some of those things. I probably do at least once a day. It’s easy to do.

Let me sidetrack a little bit here to make my point. Recently I’ve been getting into photography. I asked some people if they would let me take their photos. The photos turned out beautiful. One photo in particular I really loved! The lighting, the composition, the persons face. It was just beautiful. I was really proud of how good it turned out. When the person saw it, the first thing they said was “that’s disgusting.” Well geez, thanks. I really like that you just called something that I put time and effort into, “disgusting.” That makes me feel great, not. Whether or not that person liked the way they looked, it was flat out rude to say that to me, and honestly, it really hurt my feelings. That night as I was laying in bed, I was pondering insecurity. I realized, that just as it really hurt my feelings when that person told me my picture was disgusting, it must hurt God when we call his masterpiece disgusting.

For we are God’s masterpiece…

– Ephesians 2:10 NLT

God created us. God knit you and I together in our mothers womb. God placed that mole on your face, God made you so tall, or so short. God created you just how He wanted to. God doesn’t make mistakes, God is perfect, and so is His creation. When we say or think bad things about ourselves, we’re cursing Gods masterpiece, and I doubt He likes that.

Sometimes, we also say bad things about the way other people look. It’s really immature to do that, really. Did I decide what I would look like? No. No one chooses their looks, God does. When we talk badly about other people we’re cursing Gods masterpiece. I would be really upset if I found out someone was talking crap about my kids. I would want to beat that person up. I can’t speak for God, but I bet it makes God pretty upset when we gossip about His children (actually I know so, you can go read about that here.)

Let’s all try harder to see ourselves how God sees us – a masterpiece! Something beautiful and perfect. Take those negative thoughts about yourself captive. When you start to say “I need to lose weight” say “I’m so beautiful!” instead. I’ve been really focusing on my confessions lately, and I’ve noticed a difference in the way I feel about myself.

A few weeks ago I was feeling super insecure. It was really weird. I was so worried everyone thought my outfit was dumb and I was ugly. Then I looked around the room and thought to myself “I don’t care how a single person in this room looks. None of the people in this room care how I look.” Then I literally said out loud (in front of my friend) “I’m going to stop being insecure. I’m just going to stop.” Sometimes we think things are just the way they are and nothing can change it, when really we can change it. We just have to choose to change it.

Choose to feel beautiful. And when you feel beautiful, you’ll look even more beautiful than you already are. Insecurity makes people ugly. Confidence is beautiful no matter who wears it.

Bless The Lord Oh My Soul, Oooooooooooh My Soul!

We sing a song at church and we all sing loud and proud ‘BLESS THE LORD OH MY SOUL, OOOOOOOH MY SOUL!” We lift our hands and groove a little to the beat. Its all spiritual and fun and I get a good feeling inside. I was at a prayer meeting the other night and we were all singing that song and I was thinking how I don’t want my lips to sing that song and my life reflect something different.

 

Bless – when men bless god (psa. 103:1, 2; 145:1-2 etc.). This is when they ascribe to him those characteristics which are his, acknowledge his sovereignty, express gratitude for his mercies.

Soul – mind, will and emotions.

I want my soul (mind, will and emotions) to bless God everyday. I want my emotions to bless God. I want my will to bless God. I want my mind to bless God. I want the words I speak and the things that I do to bless God. I want the way that I live my life everyday to bless God. I want my thoughts to bless God.

If someone were to secretly record you for a week, would that person see a person with good character, whose life is blessing the Lord? Or would they see someone that blesses the Lord on Sundays and Wednesdays but doesn’t live a life to prove it? I want my life to bless the Lord, not just my lips.

Blessings Post – Giftcard

We got paid today! Woo! Every time I make a budget, I get all my bills paid, and whatever is left over goes into our food budget. Today that amount was like $20 bucks for food for the next 2 weeks and a camping trip next week. I took a good look at the food I already had, made a nice menu that got us through about a week, and then prayed that God would seriously provide.I prayed that someone would get us a gift card to food4less. A few hours later someone gave us a gift card to food4less. God really does love us and takes care of us. Matthew 6:26 has become my life verse in this season of my life!

 

Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?

Matthew 6:25-26

Don’t Be Proud Of Your Sin

When I was 17, I got pregnant out of wedlock. The night my boyfriend (now husband- long story) and I told my parents the news, I had to also tell all my siblings. I don’t like thinking about that night, I try to avoid going there in my mind because it almost always brings tears with it. But something beautiful happened that night.

After I told all my siblings the news, they all just sort of sat there quietly. It was awkward and embarrassing and awful. Then my oldest brother stood up, I don’t remember his exact words, but basically he told me that I wasn’t the only to have had sex outside of marriage, I just happened to get pregnant. But what stuck out to me, and what I’ve been thinking about the last few weeks, was that he said to not look at my sleeping around (it was really just with one guy) as “the good ol’ days.” He said that he knows people that are stuck glorifying their past, and they never move forward.

I hear a lot of people talk about how you shouldn’t let the shame of your past hold you back from the future God has for you. But what about the people that glorify their past? This is something not often talked about, but it should be. Our past, before Christ that is, was awful. My past, was yucky. My sin was terrible. I never want to glorify what nailed Jesus to the cross. I never want the way that I talk about my past, to cause someone to want to go do that.

I once had a friend that talked about their past, there was a lot of drugs involved. After hearing this person talk about it, I thought that drugs sounded super cool and maybe I wanted to try them because people that have done drugs have awesome stories! I never did drugs, because I’m smart, but what if I had? I could have ruined my life!

Do you glorify your past? Do you tell stories from before you were saved and wish that you still lived a sinful life? If you do, maybe you should pray that God would give you a new heart and mindset about sin. Next time you talk about your past, think to yourself “is the way that I’m about to talk about this going to cause someone younger than me to want to go and do this? Or will it help them to learn from my mistakes and not do the same stupid things?”

If I was sitting around all day wishing that I was still sneaking around and lying, I probably wouldn’t be where I am today. Sometimes our past can keep us from moving into our calling that God has for us, and it’s not always because we’re so ashamed of it, sometimes it’s because we’re just a little too proud of it.

Be Faithful With Your Money

l grew up in church. I heard the verse that says something about how if you’re a cheerful giver you’ll have your money given back to you pressed down, shaken together blah blah blah (Luke 6:38). It was always if you want to be blessed by God, bless others. Give above and beyond the 10% that God requires of you.

My husband and I recently felt challenged to give more. Not to get something back in return. Just give. We haven’t been given the double double and triple triple yet, but we continue to give.

The other day I was at connect group, and we were talking about being faithful in little things and my connect leader said something that blew my mind. He said something like “I dont understand why people expect God to increase their finances, when they’re not faithful with the money they have. They don’t budget, they just do whatever they feel like doing with their money, keep getting into debt, and expect God to increase their money!” Why didn’t I ever think of that!? I’m all about not going into debt, living on a budget and saving money. I didn’t realize that what I was doing was being faithful with my money.

Maybe the reason you can’t seem to have breakthrough with your finances, isn’t because you’re not tithing or not giving, but because you aren’t faithful with the money Gods already given you. So go sit down and write a budget! If you don’t know how to, I’ve got a post about that! Just writing down a budget will help you see how much money you actually have!

Blessings Post #6

Tonight we had some friends over for dinner. They brought us a leg of a lamb. To eat. So that was cool. Thanks!

Sometimes I Don’t Feel Like Worshipping

Yesterday I spent my day at the church doing cafe stuff (I was mostly just goofing off with the interns). I was scheduled to work in the cafe that night, so I spent most my day at church, had a small break, went back to do cafe. We stay open until we hear that first song start. Then we close and go into worship.  Last night when I went into worship, I was tired and didn’t especially like the song they were singing. I was in a bad mood and I almost leaned over to Josiah and said “I have a hard time worshipping to this song,” when I felt like I heard God say “it doesn’t matter how you feel, worship me anyways.” Conviction!

I make worship about how I feel. Most times I feel like worshipping. More lately than ever, really. But I really didn’t feel like worshipping yesterday. But does it matter how I feel? Feelings are so wishy-washy. Sometimes I feel like I want to do crystal meth, but I don’t just do every single thing I feel like doing. Because that’s crazy!

I think this is a good verse about worshipping whether or not you feel like it.

Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior –Habakkuk 3:17-18

This verse kind of sucks up until the last part. No food? That would make me feel like not worshipping! But! I will be joyful in God my savior! He’s our savior! How awesome! Let’s not let worship be based on our feelings, because if we let that happen, we probably won’t worship

 

Blessings Post #5

Yesterday after I made my menu plan for the next two weeks, I prayed that God would give us good deals at the grocery store. Today when we did our shopping, almost every single thing we had to buy was on sale. It was awesome. That’s more of answer to prayer, but it also counts as a blessing. I think.

Day By Day

I’ve been thinking a lot about the day to day things we do. It sort of seems to be the theme of my heart this year. I’ve already sort of written about this a little bit, but I want to talk more about it, because I think it’s really important.

Several months ago my husband and I drove around and thanked God for a couple hours. We both felt like it was the start of something. We felt like we were suppose to start focusing on just living for Christ daily. When it doesn’t feel all special and spiritual. Just reading our Bible and praying. Being obedient to whatever God tells us to do. We started doing that. Everyday, we would pray, we started giving more, we would (try to) read our Bibles everyday. It didn’t feel special. It just started feeling normal. Like it was just part of our routine. Having God time daily.

What started happening wasn’t too shocking, but it was a little. God started speaking to us! Wow! How cool! He started telling us to do things, and we listened. Josiah says that it’s been like compound interest. You just start little, but it grows and grows. I like the snowball effect example better. Once you start serving God a little everyday, it grows and grows, and you start doing better and better. You start praying longer and longer, you start digging deeper and deeper.

The other day something happened. I won’t go into specifics because it’s one of those things that I want to treasure in my heart until it happens. But God started speaking something very specific to Josiah and I about what we’re called to do. It was very strange. My entire life I was suppose to be a missionary. That’s it. Nothing more. Okay, maybe a midwife too, but that fit into the plan. Then God was like “Boom! Plan change!” We still feel called to be missionaries, and we feel like what he’s calling us to do fits into that perfectly. It’s just cool to us that we’ve been serving God faithfully these last several months and God is beginning to do things in us. It shouldn’t come as a surprise though, really.

My husband is posting a post this week all about just doing the right things everyday, and it’s really good. That’s what being a Christian is all about. It’s not about getting really excited at a camp or conference and then falling away a few months later. It’s about doing the right things everyday.

A few days ago, I felt like God wanted me to start asking Him every morning what His assignment for that day is. The first day I thought I heard God say “clean the house and be productive.” I thought “that wasn’t God!” I didn’t clean the house. God knows me pretty well. He knows that when my house is messy I get a little cray cray. I sort of lose it. God also knew that that specific day my kids would be extra screamy and naughty. The combination of the two wasn’t good for my sanity. I sort of had a major meltdown that day. That night, as the boys were sleeping, I told Josiah that if I had just cleaned the house that day, I wouldn’t have felt so overwhelmed by the boys being crazy. Then I remembered that God had told me to clean the house. So I decided that even if I think it’s just my own voice in my head, I’ll obey, because it’s most likely God. If God can trust me to clean my house when he tells me to, or to have a good attitude, he can probably trust me with even bigger things. I want God to ask me to do crazy awesome things, but if I can’t even do the little things that seem to not matter, He’s not going to ask me to do those cool things!

I’m really glad that I’ve been serving God daily. It’s been great for my family and my marriage. God has been talking to me and Josiah a lot. I will never again think that doing boring things everyday for God doesn’t matter. It matters a lot!

Blessings post #4

Yesterday after church I jokingly said to my dad “sure, I’ll let you take us out to pizza!” I was hoping he would, but figured he wouldn’t (but also knew that he might!) He took us out to pizza and let us keep the leftovers.

Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7

Insecurity Is Just A Form Of Self Absorbtion

A few years ago I was thinking to myself about insecure people. I’ve never really struggled with insecurity so I probably don’t have the right to talk a lot about this. I thought to myself, “isn’t being insecure just another form of being self absorbed?” If you think about it, conceited people and insecure people have one thing in common, it’s all about them. Whether it’s about how pretty they are, or how ugly they are. Either way, they’re focusing on themselves.

The Bible tells us not to focus on ourselves. It tells us to die to ourselves. It tells us to set our eyes upon Christ. I don’t know a lot, but it seems to me, that if we just change our focus from our flaws, our mistakes, our past, our fill in the blank, to Jesus, all those insecurities wouldn’t matter as much. If our eyes are truly set on Christ, the way we look, good or bad, doesn’t seem to matter. The way we think others perceive us, just don’t seem to be as important to us anymore.

Here’s the thing about insecurities, specifically about your looks. No one cares. Really, honestly. No one cares what outfit you wear, no one cares if your butt is big. The people that do care, don’t matter. Who cares what others think? God thinks you are beautiful! He created you just how He wanted to. He made your butt big (or small)! He loves everything about you! Why can’t we just love ourselves a little bit more?

If girls took the amount of time and energy that they spend on worrying about what others think, and put that towards focusing on others, what would the world look like? What if instead of constantly comparing ourselves to others, we complimented others? What if instead of spending years of our life worrying about how cute we look, we put that time towards praying for our lost friends? Just think of all the time we waste worrying about how we look! How we look is so insignificant in the grand scheme of things!

Let’s get morbid for a second. At your funeral, do you want people to say things like “wow, she was really beautiful.” Or do you want people to say things like “she was such an awesome servant. She was so selfless and loved to help others. She put her insecurities aside and let God use her in awesome ways!”

When we focus on ourselves, we can become two things. We can become conceited, or we can become insecure. They’re both bad. When we focus our eyes upon Christ, we become selfless. We don’t care how we look, so we’re able to really help others. Sometimes following Christ, you’ll look really stupid. That’s okay! Embrace your flaws! Be okay with them! God is! It doesn’t matter how you look! Stop wasting your time by worrying about your insecurities! Set your eyes upon Christ!

 

Blessings post #3

I spent this weekend at an amazing women’s conference at my church. The cost was $30 to go. I budgeted it out and was planning on paying when I got there. When I got there I went to sign in and pay. Apparently someone had paid for me! Thank you to whoever did that!

Blessings Post #2

Today Josiah went to an appointment with his nutritionist/acupuncturist. She works at an Organic Spa. While he was getting checked in, one of the midwives I apprentice under walked in and got some vouchers for a free 2 hour spa treatment. They were given to them so they could recommend it to their clients. Josiah told the lady that she should give him one for me, since I apprentice there. She totally did! I get to go to the spa with all the awesome midwives! I’m so excited! It really couldn’t have happened on a better day. Today has been awful. I had coffee way too late last nigh so I was up all night and then super tired today and the kids didn’t take naps. Anyways, I got a 2 hour voucher for the spa with some awesome midwives. I’m really excited. Thank you God!